I need you to be the support for me that you can obviously not provide.
All I’ve wanted over the past year is to feel loved again. Not friendship or family love, although both are always appreciated, but love from a significant other. So far every attempt I’ve made to achieve that goal has failed. I’m always too enthusiastic, too much of everything they don’t want. In the end it always ends up as ‘I can’t give you what you need’ or some other reason. I miss feeling loved and I am absolutely petrified of being rejected again.
Feeling incredibly vulnerable right now. I’ve definitely ruined it.
I am currently mid-way through writing my proposal to the council to create a community garden in my area. I’ve hit a blank wall and would like to hear your opinions on a community garden and what you believe some positives are (negatives not necessary, let’s keep this a positive place.)
So, what’s your opinion?
Now I’ve even failed myself. Deferring today made me feel worthless. I feel like I let my family and myself down.